Anxiety

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One of the terrible things about having anxiety is that is really puts blinders on your life. You become so focused on these little "pieces" that you forget there's a bigger picture....and there's not really much you can do to control the big picture, it's coming for you one way or another.

Bottom line, we're moving to Japan. Come hell or high water, we'll get our stuff, our dog, and our lives moved over the pacific ocean to a town called Yokosuka. That's what I have to focus on. I can't focus on the missteps along the way. I can't get down because things aren't going according to the calendar in my head. As immensely frustrating and jaw grinding as things might be, I have to try not to control everything, because at the end of the day I can't.

I was taking Wylee out last night and could see the city of San Diego spanning across the hills (we have a great view from our front porch) with all it's shimmery lights.....and it hit me that I only have a few more weeks to enjoy this view, to stand in this spot, to watch my dog frolic around in that patch of grass. Things are going to change.

It's funny how moments of clarity come when you least expect them. Oh, the change is coming and I can either face it being an anxious mess of a person who in an attempt to control everything ended up losing control or I can just take it as it comes and roll with the punches. It's going to happen, I need let it.

Now, back to our regularly scheduled blog. Up next, reschedule the movers (yeah, we had to cancel them) and final day of work in four working days....